I am a night owl: always have been. Even as a little kid, I hated going to bed. Sleep just didn’t make sense to me. Why waste my time closing my eyes when I could be up reading or watching television? That remains a part of my thinking even now — even after I’ve read all the reports that getting a good night’s sleep is foundational to good health. I suppose I’ve confirmed the wisdom of those warnings. But still.
I used to be able to get things done late at night. I could write a sermon, draft notes for a class, review a Bar Mitzvah speech — any number of intellectually ambitious projects. Sadly, those early-morning hours are no longer so productive for me. My mind slows down, though I can still read for pleasure at one in the morning. And I must confess, for full disclosure, a little scrolling on TikTok… or Instagram…
So it’s just round midnight — Wednesday morning, technically — and I’m looking at the three long tables that stretch from our living room across the foyer into the other room. My wife, Liza, always sets up the house for Passover. She stills the chaos and makes everything special — dare I say, sacred. I look at it all and I reflect on every seder I’ve attended, every person I’ve had the privilege of singing with and laughing with and arguing over the Haggadah with. It’s really quite extraordinary.
We’ve had a lot of people come through our house for Passover. I believe our largest crowd was 46, maybe twelve years ago. I look at the plates and glasses and silverware laid out along the tables, and the seder plates sitting empty, ready to be loaded in just a few hours.
Last week I went shopping for all the necessary Passover supplies. I love having my supermarket — I know where everything is, I trust the quality. As I slowly cruised the aisles, I was suddenly struck by a question: how much longer will I be doing this? How many more years will I be standing here looking at brisket, reaching for another box of matzah?
It was not a sad moment. But it was poignant. Poignant comes from the Old French poignant, the present participle of poindre — “to prick, to sting” — which in turn comes from the Latin pungere, “to pierce.” There is something fitting in that etymology. The best poignant moments — in music, in memory, in liturgy — really do feel like a small, precise wound. A pinch. And I felt it: the slight seismic rumble of mortality.
Which is ironic, because Passover is a transcendent story that never ends. And I find that reassuring. We will all come and go, but the story of our journey — the foundation of our faith, the record of our tenacity — will not disappear. Even if, Heaven forfend, there were no more Jews, someone would still be studying our culture, our courage, and saying: those people knew how to live.
So here I sit in my very quiet house, which in just a few hours will be full of noise and singing and laughter and the clinking of glasses. I’m counting place settings, anticipating who will be here — and remembering those who used to share this table with me and are no longer. On Passover, time briefly collapses into an eternal present, and we catch glimpses of hope through the darkness.
I hope you will have a moment tonight to look up and truly see whoever is sitting beside you. Let them know. Remind them that the Passover seder is never singular — it is always, and only, plural.
Jump into the cosmic drama. Reenact the Exodus. Whether your seder runs three hours or ends at the Four Questions, we are all part of the same story.